Run away

I am so very proud that I have learned to live life without drugs and alcohol, but it sucks that I live in the same town that I partied in. It is a constant reminder of all the wrong things I have done. When you become an addict at a young age as I did there is not to many places you haven't got high or drunk at. From the park, playgrounds,port a johns alleys u name it. These places are a constant reminder of the terrible life I used to live. I could be having a wonderful day and drive by a place where I got high at and it just ruin the whole mood of the day. I am sure that these bad memories will be replaced with good ones but its enough to make me wanna run away and start over making good memories. Sometimes I sit and think why didn't somebody stop me from my reckless behavior. I was just 13 a young girl who wanted to fit in. I now have a 13 yr old girl and I see how,young and niave she is to imagine her doing the things I did at her age it breaks my heart. Didn't anybody see I was on a destructive path. I truly believe everything happens for a reason. But sometimes I wish I could change things.