So its Valentines Day! Today was a very special day I was surrounded by the people in my life that mean the world to me. Almost 3 yrs ago I met the man I will spend the rest of my life with. He came into my life and changed it all for the better. He has seen me at my worst and at my best. He helped me fight my demons. When we first met I was still an active addict, and well long story short he helped me through my withdraw. I laid in his 2 room apartment sick for days while he took care of me. For several days I fought the demons within me and became so much closer with God. It may sound crazy but I felt like there was a war going on within me the devil didnt want to let go of me but with the help of God I fought the demons and won!! I thank God often for my amazing fiance. I am truly amazed that I found my best friend and my soul mate. In the past I never thought I would find someone like him. I guess I never thought I was good enough or deserved someone good. All my past relationships where very abusive so I had accepted the idea. Going through withdraw was one of the hardest things that I have had  to do, because I not only fought physical pain there was the mental pain.

      It still amazes me how God places people in our path some are good and then you find some that are bad. I often tell my fiance the story about my prayer the night before he asked me out. I went outside (to smoke) and I sat there high and alone and I said God please help me to stop this viscous pattern. I asked God to please help me get out of the destructive relationship I had. The very next day my fiance asked me out.

So moral of the story is God knows what he is doing. God answers prayers, it may not be the answer we want but its is the best answer.