Beautiful and Applying Myself

     I am so very proud to say I have almost finished my first semester of my college classes!!!! I am actually passing with high B's!!! This is so surprising to me because I was not a good student in high school. I had failing grades; I think most of my high school years. School didn't interest me. I felt awkward and didn't fit in. So I soon found comfort in drugs and alcohol. From the very young age of 13 I began to party and Oh did I party. At lunch I sat with the stoners because they knew who had the drugs; so I would buy my drugs (which was whatever there was that day) and by my next class I was high. My weekends consisted of drinking my favorite shots southern blues and captain and coke.

 

      So since I did so poorly in school I just figured I wasn't smart. I believed all those crazy thoughts and ideas the devil placed in my head. I believed that I would never be able to apply my self to anything. I believed I was ugly and would never amount to anything.These awful thoughts led me into many abusive relationships. Well here I am beautiful and applying myself. Its amazing what we are capable of when we apply ourselves and focus our lives on purpose and substance. I used to feel so far away from God I know now that he carried me to where I am at today. I still wake up everyday  wondering how I got to where I am. I thank God because I can finally say I am beautiful and applying myself!
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