I Pray for Strength

My body hurts and aches. I feel yrs older than I really am.My health is unpredictable. I thought once I got clean and sober I would feel wonderful. I thought if I just get through the pain of withdraw I would be able to start a healthy life. I had all these plans of what I was going to do. Well God had other plans.Right before I got pregnant with my lil man Dean I started having severe pain all over my body.  It only started to get worse. Soon after the birth of Dean I started my dreaded trips to the Dr.'s. I was miss diagnosed for months. It took almost a year after Deans birth to be diagnosed with fibromyalgia.

Something I learned from my life experiences and my biblical classes is that our life is not our own. You would think that I would of learned by now. We can make plans and set goals but if God has others plans for us, our plans will not work.. Everyday is a struggle to get out of bed, but I have no other choice! Even though my pain is enough to bring me to tears my children need me. I do not know why God has let me deal with this disease; but I do know there is a reason........ I just have not been told yet!!!
I do not pray for God to take this pain away I pray to have the strength to live with it. Hugs and Prayers